Woof, well, that was fun

Only, not actually so much. I finally got down to it to tell Oi Vey I didn't see things going anywhere between us. Well, actually, I tried to use a cheap cop out and get him to stop being interested in me, then felt bad, and 'fessed up. :/ I had thought maybe if I could get him to lose interest in me, he'd feel like he was the one who ended things and I could essentially get out of rejecting him. I know, I know, stupid! That's a terrible thing to do. I realized halfway through I couldn't lie to the guy like that.

Me: Look i have a confession and i feel really bad about it so im gonna just say it. I've been saying all this stuff to try and freak you out so you wouldnt be interested in me anymore.
Him: Y would u do that. Hmmm
Me: *sigh* I just didn't know how to tell you i didnt think things were gonna work out between us and my best friend told me to do it this way so i wouldnt hurt you but i cant lie to you :/
Him: Y would u want to do that. Y don't u think we wouldnt work out

Every time he talks he personifies all the things about him that annoy me. Hmmmm? Hmmm?

Me: I just don't really feel us connecting.
Him: Hmm That's fucked up Y u think it couldn't work U never gave it a shot Hmmmmmmmm
Me: I wanted to give it a shot, but I realized I really don't think we could get along.

I figured that's nicer than telling him I find him endlessly irritating.

Him: I do Just give a shot And I can prove it too u
Me: This is exactly why i dont think we could work. It's like you don't even listen to me when i tell you something. I told you i felt like you were getting too clingy, you said you werent. I told you we dont know eachother well enough, you say we do. I tell you we wont get along, you say we will. I feel like you ignore how im feeling.

Then he basically told me he could change, and that I should really give him a chance. You know, I really think I gave him more chances than he deserved. I told him he SHOULD consider working on this stuff, if he says he really wants to, because maybe it'll help him with the next girl he meets. The last thing he said before logging off abruptly was "So whatever have a good life and by the way I have been talking to 3 other people at the same time as talking to u". Ooh. Ouch. I'm aching inside.

Anyhow, on a lighter note! Guess who I spoke to? I finally came right out and asked Pally if he just wasn't interested in me anymore, since he'd started IMing me to say hi, but then getting really quiet, and it was confusing me. So, turns out, it's not that he's not interested, he just had realized he probably can't deal with the distance. According to him, he wanted to tell me, but was terrified to do so, but he also felt horrible keeping it from me, so he decided to all together avoid me so he wouldn't feel like it was gonna come exploding out of his mouth, and he wouldn't feel as guilty keeping it from me. So we had a chat, and I told him I'll get over him not wanting to date me, though it sucks. He's a sweet heart! I told him what I couldn't deal with, however, was having him avoid me for the rest of our lives. If I can't date him, you had better believe I want him in my life as a good friend, and I think now he and I are gonna be okay. :)

Oh, one last thing! Remember the shy guy who was giving me advice yesterday? I've officially dubbed him Happy Feet haha, to which he responded "Oh god." Good stuff! Anyhow, tonight he wrote me the sweetest little poem thing before going off to bed. I hope he won't hate me for posting it, but it's just so sweet!

"though outside, it may be almost light, i just want to say good night. So may you have a peaceful rest and sweet dreams, of a world that is not what it seems..and in that dream of dreams may you wish of things that bring you happiness that come tomorrow, i will hopefully not make you miss "

I'm such a freaking sucker for stuff like that!